Sunday, November 30, 2008

life motto.





세상이 당신을 버렸다고 생각하지마라.
세상이 당신을 가진적이 없다.

don't think that the world has turned its back on you.
it never had you in the first place.




why do people get so caught up in things that are insignificant? you can pout and bitch all you want and yet you have to think, what have you achieved? honestly. in this world. all i have is : me, myself, and i. i embrace my independence. it's a damn blessing to be able to brush things off. i've learned it the hard way and certainly am not proud of how incredibly petty i was. what do you gain by picking fights with every person you disagree with?

absolutely nothing.

life is full of bitches, skanks, jackasses, and disappointments. i'm just wasting my breath by talking shit and bitching about them.

i don't care what people think of me.
i don't care how they judge me.
i don't care that they made these judgements without truly knowing me.
i don't care how these people seem to love forcing their opinions on other people.
i know who i am.
i know what i want to do.
i know not everyone is going to like how i act.
i know that i'm comfortable with that fact.




college is truly where you find yourself.




Saturday, November 29, 2008

shopping day.

yesterday. i came home at 2 in the morning. chillin at alyssa's. i love seeing old friends. :D

went to brea mall today with the marmar. had a whole bunch of coupons and shit that i didn't want to waste. ;]

  • urban decay book of shadows $45->$33 with $15 dollar off coupon (sephora)
  • 4 for $10 antibacterial collection + $12 lip gloss/scrub duo = $10 after coupon (bath and body works)
  • plaid coat $37 (forever21)
  • cargo jacket/hoodie..thing $75->$45(foreign exchange)
  • two beanie/berets $11 (forlove21)
good day people. goooooood day. :D

Sunday, November 23, 2008

LOL.

i want. no.

NEED these.


from the infamous unforgivable video. "FOR FREE!!"


"no bitchassness." lol. motto for life.

to do for this week.

  • finish (stupidass) persuasion. oh that jane austen/sparknote if i get desperate
  • finish a draft/whole damn paper for prompt three
  • go exchange my jacket and sweats from bookstore (ALADDIN PANTS!!!) and get new ones!!!
  • get my grubby little hands on instyle magazine with robert pattinson like my life depends on it <3 <3 <3
  • fill out VDC application and send in $150 security deposit
  • go shop but not on friday. eff that shit. too crazy for me. haha.
  • spend time with my wonderful-better-than-your family
  • get a damn permit
  • winter quarter tuition due december 15 (what the EFFFFFFF?! already.)

what the eff. we're going to utah??

what's in utah????????

Saturday, November 22, 2008

saturdays.

came home yesterday and ate pho with my parents for dinner.

watched the chaser or choo gyuk ja (which is being remade WTF).
let me tell you. that is one twisted ass movie. it's HELLA good though. i highly recommend it to anyone that likes thrillers. but yeah. i had to watch it on mute most of the time. it was a like a blatant mindfuck. let me tell you..ha jung woo is sexy..but a complete psycho in the movie.

thursday night was fun. putting together those damn flowers together for wes was hard. but the show was so so so amazing. it should be WES side story. lol. but seriously. uci barclay theatre puts on some hardcore productions. the set was amazing. the actors and actresses were amazing. let me tell you. girl who played maria had some lungs on her. watching orchestra play made me miss band. gasp. i know. :]

but yeah. i definitely miss playing in an ensemble now. maybe if i have more time i'll try out for one at our school someday. haha.

let me tell you. pippin is really cute. (our commons for eating in middle earth.) we had thanksgiving dinner. it was really cute. we went as a hall and it was so legit. they had decorations galore. turkey. ham. stuffing. mashed potatoes. even caramel apples <3

i still have to read persuasion by austen and begin writing the bluest eye as well. sigh. slackerrrrrrrrrrrrrr.


playlist (for now)
october - eric whitacre
free - sawajiri erika
take a bow - gabe bondoc cover
put your hands up for detroit - fedde le grand
bruises - chairlift
if i were a boy - beyonce
총 맞은것처럼 (like i was shot) - baek ji young
this modern love - bloc party

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

even though i probably won't watch this anytime soon (for fear of crazy teeny boppers).



what.
a.
sexy.
bitch.



robert pattinson you have my heartttttttttttttttttttt. <3

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Sunday, November 16, 2008

life&theuniverse.

so, i've finished my crack paper on aristotelian excellences and more specifically courage. well. yeah. i "finished."

i swear. if i have to read aristotle again, i just might burn the damn book. don't get me wrong. it's really really interesting. but have you ever tried parsing aristotle? it's damn near impossible. he uses so many weird ass wordings it's so hard to get what he's saying the first time around. brilliant man but cheeze and macaroni, we're only freshmen in college. can't we just save this shit for later.

yeah. so bio and humcore are both kicking my ass.

bio 93. well you know. it's the whole reason why i'm switching my major. haha. this course is ridiculous. for me it's like shoooooot me!!!! hahaa. mondays, wednesdays, fridays lecture. tuesdays are discussions and larc tutoring. thursdays are larc tutoring again. bio is taking over my life. [insert scream here.]

humcore. this class..sigh. i only took it because it's double the units and gets writing and some humanities courses out of the way. it's very interesting. i have a soft spot for philosophy and such. but dang the prompts are ridic-uh-luss. i mean first paper, i had to write a 4-5 page paper on three damn pages of a speech. and let me tell you, the book is YEE BIG. it's like half the size of a regular 8 by 11 piece of paper. and oh yeah it's by freaking PLATO. damn these philosophers. having a freaking hilarious section leader makes it better but still. i'm dreading the 10 page research paper due at the end of this year. :[



so most of you know that i'm changing my major from bio sci to psychology. it makes me really excited because i feel like it's a huge step forward in making a life for myself. the people over at NYU are really nice and i'm really excited to go into music therapy. the courses over there and prerequisites sound like a blast to take.

i'm going to take this and run with it.
i support love.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

people are funny.

edit// 11/16/08

i pity people who struggle to think for themselves. they can't handle other people so they try to have you see their way which they think is right or are entirely dependent on other people. it's a damn shame. i can't stand people who can't accept other people. i also can't stand people who can't accept themselves.

i've been down the road where other people's opinions mattered so much that i lost my own identity. i once lived my life through other people. i've learned not to anymore.

i am independent. people might mistake that for bitchiness. others may misinterpret this as being detached from my emotions. i'm merely comfortable with myself.

i value opinions, but don't rely on them to make my own.
i really don't give a damn what people say about me. they're wasting their damn breath bitching about me when i don't even care.
i believe friendship is about compromise. i'll catch you when you slip up. i expect the same from you.
i can handle constructive criticism. don't worry. i'm a big girl.
i have really dry humor. when i crack a joke, don't take it up the ass.
i know how to be a civil person. just because i don't like you, it doesn't mean we can't talk.


can we cut the bullshit? it's getting old.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

yesterday was our day off so i went to spectrum with my future roomie jessel.

dang i love this girl. heart heart.

bought a postsecret book yesterday. there are four out but i bought this one because people had slipped in secrets into anonymously. i just felt strangely compelled. 


eff everything else. i just want the three other books now haha.



(i plan on sending my own secret in a bit.)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

"for it is harder to face what is painful than to abstain from what is pleasant." - aristotle, nichomachean ethics, book III, chapters 9







be courageous.




i can only hope that i lead a life where i live with absolutely no regrets. a life where i don't let people dictate the way i live. a life where although i truly care for people, i don't let them sway me.

"and she said whoa child. your back is straight. don't let her curve it that way."
-the jakes 'take me home'

all this came to fruition while guzzling down peppermint green milk tea with boba from cha for tea and reading about aristotelian excellences.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

wishlist.

so. i got up today at 10. arrived back at the dorms at 2ish. and then studied until 6. ate dinner. and then studied some more.

i hate midterm time. at least i have some time off on tuesday. discussion got canceled. whoopee. imma paint on brian's/my shirt on tuesday. arts and crafts <3

1)

MAC little darlings in neutral. $29.50 edit// nvm. went to spectrum today and saw it in real life, it ain't worth it. haha.

2)
laura mercier flawless face kit $65

3)
urban decay book of shadows $45

4)
bath and body works : liplicious 2 in 1 moisturizing lipcolor and sugar scrub $12

5)
nars lipgloss in turkish delight, giza, bloodwork, and chihuahua $24


mwahahaha. i need to find myself a sugar daddy. LOL


GAHHH. midterm manana. :[

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

sigh.

we should've expected this.

so. i voted yesterday for the first time in my life. i mean. i'm proud to say that i voted for obama and i voted NO against prop 8.

honestly. these people i'm talking to, observing. they're so ignorant.

look. whether you fucking like it or not, obama is going to be our president. deal.

he is not muslim. no he doesn't have ties to terrorists. if you call him out on that, you're retarded because it's not TRUE. your idea of truth is distorted and you are SEVERELY disillusioned.


it makes me sad to see shit like this as comments on Yahoo:

"Unfortunately the kool-aid drinking and uneducated populace that elected this terrorist loving, tax and spend socialist, in sheep's clothing, don't realize what they've done. At least, I said No to BO. I am the Rightguard against this BO! Long live the USA and not the U.S.S.A.!"

uh first of all. now you have just proved to everyone on the internet that you're a racist dumbfuck. kool-aid drinking and uneducated? wow. pot calling the kettle black. you are obviously too enraptured with your own EGO to look around and realize, WOW america is really fucking diverse. shit like that can get your ass beat around here. i am in no way making physical threats but i can't say the same for other people. other people are straight up SCARY. and spend socialist?? hmmmm. i wonder who approves all the spending. oh yeah. CONGRESS. there is no way in hell that you can get away with blaming one person for something. everyone contributed to this crisis and everyone must contribute to help the country out of this crisis.


oh and prop 8. let me say. i voted NO because i believe in equal rights. i personally don't have anything against gay marriage. i personally have gay friends and it breaks my heart that they're never going to be able to say that they are wedded to whom they love. these people are not going to come and live with you once they get married. what is the big fucking deal? let's see the main arguments people have attacked me with.

a) "you're not a true christian because the bible says gay marriage isn't allowed."

well first of all. you're damn right, i'm not a christian. i'm agnostic. i was once a christian. i began my education at a christian school. went to chapel every tuesdays and sundays. i've probably read more of the fucking bible than most of the so called "christians" i've encountered. now i'm an agnostic because i've lost faith in the faith. i've seen too many hypocritical people claim to "want" to save me and then go condemn someone else to hell of a different religion. i choose not to be affiliated with people like that so suck it. second of all. the bible was not written for you to take it literally. it was written so it could be a basis and an example for you to draw your own individual morals from. fuck what everyone else says. you're basically just conforming to a bunch of hypocrites. (though i must admit, there are only a handful of christians that actually make sense and practice what they preach. i love them for it.) and besides if we listened to everything that the bible said, wouldn't incest be alright in our society?? for example: genesis 4 and the story of cain. adam and eve have cain and abel. cain kills abel. "Cain lay with his wife, and she became pregnant and gave birth to Enoch." WHOA. hold up. where did his wife come from? did she spontaneously combust upon earth? hmm. sound fishy? oh not enough information? too vagu?e here let me give you some more blatant evidence of incest.

genesis 20:11 story of abraham and sarah.

"Abraham replied, "I said to myself, 'There is surely no fear of God in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.' Besides, she really is my sister, the daughter of my father though not of my mother; and she became my wife."


yeah. read it and take it in. not even going to explain further.



NEXT argument that i've heard.

"america is based on christian values. look at the pledge of allegiance."

hmmm. unless my history teachers are all part of a conspiracy to brainwash the children of america, i learned that america was founded on the basis of religious freedom. yeah that's why they sailed over from england. oh yeah. this idea is also part of the constitution which is just a small little document that we base every damn thing on. why are we making a constitutional amendment based on 52% of what the population in just CALIFORNIA thinks. 52% of the californian population is basically stating that homosexual people are lesser of humans then we are. just because of their sexual preference. oh you say that that is not the case? well let's see. 52% of you guys are taking away people's rights. that must mean that they do not deserve them. who are we as people to give and take away rights? if you truly are a christian, you must believe that your God is the ONLY one to judge people.


"If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.“” (Romans 12:19-21)

this is straight from your HOLY BIBLE. so you're saying that if you believe in the bible, you can forgive the same terrorists that killed countless people on september 11th because they're human, but you can't give fucking EQUAL RIGHTS to gay people? these rights aren't PRIVILEGES. they're the same ones we have!!!!


it. is. ridiculous.



honestly my friend jie put it in the best words possible.


"it feels like we took two steps forward with obama, and a step back with prop 8."



i just feel immense disappointment. best of luck for all of those going to the rally tonight. be safe.

Monday, November 03, 2008

housing.

dude. everyone in our fucking hall woke up at like 5:45 to do fucking housing.

and their server is DOWN.


EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.


and so. we deal with it how any mature college student would do.

we facebook it.




edit//9:00 pm


so. housing server was down, therefore we must do the same thing again on wednesday.

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.


anyways. i was just thinking. i feel like a lot of people back home are still kind of stuck in high school. like stuck with petty bullshit that doesn't even matter anymore. it's kinda ridiculous.

and i hate going through stupid shit over here too. it's retarded. and completely useless. it's like shiiiiiit. can we just get over it?



gahhh.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

the weekend.

hmm. so it's been a while since i've written here. mwahaha.

so hmm. week 6 is here. almost done with the quarter already. quarter system definitely takes some getting used to but whatevs. i have part two of my bio midterm in a week. boo hoo. i'm avoiding sick people like the plague because i need to keep my health up. i need to KICK ASS on this midterm.

anyway. housing has become a big issue in our hall lately. VDC (vista del campo) is like the one i'm looking at with mi amiga jessel. we click. and i'm SUPER glad i met her. yeah. i'm waking up at freaking 5:30 to fill out the stupid application because i hear it's REALLY in demand.


dayummmm.

college life. hahaha.